Some Days of my Life - Episode one.
August 14, 2016
This is another entry from one of the old diaries I unearthed yesterday.
Reading the entries - I meet myself again - in this instance in 1978 - 38 years ago.
At that time I was primarily a visual artist and still involved in the women's artist movement. The idea of finding myself as a storyteller had never entered my imagination.
So much has happened since then - and its very interesting, more than interesting actually - to come so close to those days again through my journals, little tablets and blank books I carried with me for weeks and wrote in every day so I recognize and remember them and reading my story in my own handwriting.
Its connecting with myself
I am so grateful for finding this mixed-up collection of little books which are telling me the story of some days of my life.
Especially as it tells me I ws headed toward telling personal stories sooner or later.
February 26, 1978
After Roots 2 and my absorption in that chronicle of a family for over 12 hours of television. Alex Hayley said at the end "interview your family - start with the oldest member."
That's what I have been starting in a sense, with the Granny Collages - looking to the past for material for my art. But so far I have been relying on my memory and more to the point calling back feelings not events.
I also realize that when I start to "make art" I really think of it - not in concepts but as "making things." I think first about something I want to do or to make.
That was one of my blocks in graduate school - not looking at a still-life set-up for relationships but starting in to make something.
Luciano Penay ( a favorite painting professor at American University) says, " thats the answer - what was the question." I arrive at the answer first by making something.
Is that wrong - or not a way to approval for my art-making? Who knows?
Mimi's (i.e Miriam Schapiro) response to my collages - that "they are strong, rich -
Ofcourse she's a supportive responder - so I don't know exactly how to read that - I want to accept it and feel it as praise but I am not sure. And also felt myself wanting, needing her approval - the mother-daughter trip. I want to stay away from that.
Judge my art myself. Evaluate what, where, and how.
Find something I want to make make and then figure out how to do it!
1982 From a loose page - a small page blue with faint lines.
What does revealing diaristic work have to do with art p other than as a means for self-understanding - to help an artist get to a personal statement - - in art terms?
Formalistic terms are more important to me --
and that's okay..
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