11/15/2013

Catch up and a New Video

 Lately I have have been blocked off this blog by password troubles. Now back.

 For eight years I wrote something on this blog every day - just to keep in touch with myself and what was going on in my life. Well, since Jim died in 2012 I gradually lost interest in blog writing and substituted Posts on Facebook as a short cut means to keep in touch with myself and the world.  Of late, just to keep the channels open, my writing here has become a trickle of videos and fledgling "thoughts".

Part of my withdrawal has been because I find myself having to re-start my life and that goes slow. Nothing is as it was and so the blog took that hit as well. Its hard to talk about life when you are not really sure what's happening. I know there are many out there who understand this perfectly - because they have been there and done the life-redo themselves.

Facebook posts are easier  - - the medium is a social networking exercise so you put on your happy face even when that's not true at all. I do that - hoping to "fake it" until its true. Its sort of like being at Disneyland where everyone is laughing and the world is Candyland.  Facebook is a richly sugared world - nice -  I like it - but its not real. Someone said to me recently, " I read all your posts and you are doing so well - really getting over it." Hello, I am a storyteller.

Storytellers know how to give an audience what they want to hear.

However

I feel change happening.
Things are stirring.
Maybe change is taking hold.
So, I am back on the blog -
maybe not everyday -
hoping to notice what's happening
 and catch it -

 unsugared.


 Adding a new video - a recent telling of an old story. I was drawn to this story about 10 years ago -


2 comments:

Granny Sue said...

Well said, Ellouise. Sometimes we have no energy to dig in and explore and write about that exploration. FB isn't the place for it, generally. I hope to read more of your thoughts here. Missing you!

Sandra D. said...

I am glad you wrote what you did. A year is hardly enough time to "get over it" and a lifetime never will be. I still think you're such an inspiration. Keep on writing, blogging and posting videos, bitter pills and all : )

xo,
Sandra